What Do You Do

SELF-REFLECTION

DAY 17

What do you do

When you don’t know what to do

When you don’t know what to say

And you don’t know what to think

What do you do

When there is nothing left to do

Nothing left to say

Nothing left to think

What do you do

When there is nothing you can do

Nothing you can say

To stop the pain

Or make it go away

What do you do

When you know exactly what to do

Exactly what to think

Yet you can’t do any of it

Something holds you back

You can see everything happening around you

You watch as it all falls to pieces

And you do nothing

What do you do

Two Days Sick Is Too Long

SELF-REFLECTION

DAY 14

I was sick as a dog for two entire days

Confined to a bed, much to my dismay

I laid there and tried so hard to get rest

I listened as my husband did his very best

It seemed like there was a war zone downstairs, there were all kinds of sounds

Perhaps two days is too long, to not have Mom around

I could tell my husband was in over his head

Slowly but surely, I crept out of bed

I stepped into the hallway, and tripped over a doll

Luckily, a giant stuffed bear broke my fall

Once downstairs, I realized this was a code RED

If I had known sooner, I would not have stayed in bed

I saw my house in complete disarray

It was enough of a disaster to turn anyone’s hair gray

The walls were scribbled with blue and green

The amount of toys was just obscene

There were sippy cups galore

And dirty clothes all over the floor

The dishes in the sink were piled high

My kitchen literally looked like a pigsty

There was so much laundry that had to be done

I even considered buying new clothes for everyone 

Finally, our eyes met and I could tell he was tired

But that didn’t matter, both toddlers were wired

Izabelle had colored herself from head to toe

Using every single color of the rainbow

Chloe wore dress up clothes and was very proud

She was dancing, singing, and being loud

In the midst of it all, I couldn’t help but laugh

I imagined the chaos he had endured on my behalf

I assured him, I would take over from here

He said “thank you” and was very sincere

My husband is strong, but he is only a man

No one can tackle this house quite like MOM can

YOU ARE MY LIGHT

Recycling an old post since I am sick. This poem is one of my favorites that I have written.

SELF-REFLECTION

DAY 7

Reflecting on myself and my life has been a lot harder than I ever imagined it would be.  As I take these walks down memory lane, a lot of emotions fill my soul.  My artistic side is really beginning to shine through.  I suppose it is meant to happen this way.  I feel like I am blossoming into a new person. Or perhaps, this person was always here, I just needed to dig deep so I could find her. This poem is for my husband, who has never given up on me.

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YOU ARE MY LIGHT

My heart has been broken many times before

It shattered like glass, and now it is no more.

I carry the pieces with me everywhere I go

Holding onto them tightly, never letting go

These parts that I have so preciously saved

Are reminders of a storm, once braved

I want to move on but they are weighing me down

There is darkness around me, I’m going to drown

I’m fading fast, I’m slipping away

You know I’m broken, and yet you stay

You wipe my tears, and you kiss my cheek

I feel your breath, and then you speak

You say “It doesn’t matter what happened in the past.”

“Our love is real and it is going to last.”

You hold each piece of my heart so gently with care

You mend what you can, with a love so rare

You were the sun, in the middle of endless rain

You gave me life, and took away my pain

You show me the meaning of love everyday

In everything you do, and everything you say

You were my light, when the dark closed in

I am as lucky now, as I was back then

I Will But I Will Not

SELF-REFLECTION

DAY 4

I will not take life for granted, I won’t live in the past 

I will live everyday to the fullest, as if it were my last

I will not be afraid to fall in love, I’ll learn to let go

I will overcome fear, and not let my pain show

I will not waste my talents or my dreams

I  will learn contentment and exactly what it means

I will not let my most memorable moments fade

I will hold onto them, and make sure more are made

I will not allow toxic people to make me cry

I will follow my morals, and keep my standards high

I will not lose faith at any cost

I will embrace hope when all seems lost

I will not be ashamed of the person I am, I will love myself inside and out

I will let my true colors shine, even when I’m in doubt