Don’t Fix Yourself, Be Yourself

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SELF-REFLECTION

DAY 11

This whole self-reflecting bit has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I need to be honest right now. This has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. I feel vulnerable, powerless almost, as I succumb to the inevitable. I know that these reflections are a must, and they have to happen so I can find peace within myself.

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Over these past couple of weeks, I have learned so much about myself. As far back as I can remember, I have always wanted to be a different person. I have often felt insecure and lost. I have never felt that anything I did in this life truly mattered, until now. I have never shown my artwork, until now. I lived in fear of failing, fear of never being good enough. Why do I always feel like there is something about me that needs to be fixed? I am socially awkward, and I always tend to say the wrong thing. I’m quirky, and weird, and I talk A LOT.

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I have really begun to see things in a whole new light. Trying to fix these characteristics of myself is a complete waste of time. Why? Because these characteristics make up who I am. Without them, I wouldn’t be ME. Yes I am awkward and weird, but I am also one of the kindest people you could ever meet. I am a true friend, which is a rarity these days. I have a huge heart, and all I want in this life is to make a difference. I want to tell my story to inspire others. I want to share my art because it is MINE. I want to bare my soul on paper and canvas because I am an artist. I want to be ME. No more masks, no more trying to change. You can’t fix something that is not meant to be fixed. I have tried. I am finally starting to come out of my shell. It only took 30 years. I feel like I have everyone here to thank for that. I have given you the real me and you have accepted her. Now that I have this new found wisdom, what will I do with it? Stay tuned my friends…..

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26 thoughts on “Don’t Fix Yourself, Be Yourself

  1. It’s great to hear that your journey of reflection has given you such a gift … Acceptance of yourself. We all struggle with self doubt at times Focus on the good things – you are a kind, awesome, unique person! Looking forward to seeing where your journey takes you next…

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  2. 🙂 All the very best, I hope you get to the farthest reaches of your soul and find out yourself. Your post is so pure and honest I am lost for words to encourage you. Keep going 🙂 You are doing great.

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  3. Thank you for sharing with such honesty and clarity. You have more courage than you realise and your desire for truth and honest reflection is admirable. Good luck on your journey and we will be here to support and encourage you along the way. Go well and enjoy!

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  4. If you were reciting this somewhere, I’d surely clap until my hands simply ceased to exist.
    I have no words, and I talk a lot as well.

    I wish you the best, from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for sharing your story. You do truly inspire others.

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    1. Wow, thank you so much. You really have no idea how much your positive feedback means to me. I am so happy you are here and reading my words! Reflecting on yourself is not for the faint hearted. It has been a lot harder than I expected. Knowing that I am actually inspiring others and that people are hearing my voice is everything to me. So thank you my friend, for your kind encouraging words.

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  5. I loved this. There were many, “yes, yups, and uh huhs…” On my part while I read this. We seem to have a lot in common. I’m currently working on a Self doubt post and the power we have to self-sabotage

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  6. “As far back as I can remember, I have always wanted to be a different person. I have often felt insecure and lost. I have never felt that anything I did in this life truly mattered, until now.” – Wow. You could be writing about my life there, lol. I’m glad you are getting the chance to find yourself. I hope your self-reflection leads you on a great journey.

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    1. Thanks so much! I’m trying to find myself lol hopefully I do. Blogging has really helped. It’s like I have opened this whole new door. I love it. It is so comforting to know that I am not the only one feeling this way and that I am not in this alone.

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